end of the week...
the end of the week is here again.... every week, i have this same sad feeling of having to leave my wonderful home for the cold and hard army bunk...... what to do? this is one of those times when i have to move away from my comfort zone and learn to adjust to the new environment, the springy mattress, shaky bedframe, rusty and dusty cupboard, squeaking windows and finally the atmosphere created by 11 other people sleeping in the same room as me...by right, i should have been in the camp on friday and book out on sat like my bunkmates, but my MC was further extended, so that meant i haven't been back to camp for 1 whole week!!! man! i wonder how my sergeants will react when they see me back in camp on monday.....think the first thing they'll do is to PUMP me push-ups again as usual!! anyway this week maybe a rest week, but i didn't get myself all fat and clumsy, instead i lost 4 kgs due to poor appetite caused by those dreadful medicines.... anyway, i'm all fine now, except for my seriously inflammed throat.....
time flies...my PTP(physical training phase) is almost over.... now going to start the really scary BMT(basic military training)... this is going to last for 2 months, and it's going to start on the 29th September... tough challenges awaits me, so the only thing i can do is to brace myself for the road ahead, afterall many of my friends has gone through this road unscathed... some can even tell me it's fun, but it's all down to individuals...maybe by the end of it, i can tell my other friends who haven't gone through it, that it is FUN too?
it really was a pity i didn't get to join my friends today, they had it all planned out to play an "Eating Game" whereby you'll go around eating different types of food and linking them up with every dishes' first and last name... they went to the karaoke soon after but i think it's better that i stay at home to pack my stuffs for my trip back to camp than to join them....
missed the chance to see "her" at the gathering.... expected that she'll be there, but had to miss it because it's my dad's birthday!!! sigh.... anyway, hope someday i can see her again, and give her something which i've been wanting to give it to her for a long time...
till now, i still dun understand myself, what i'm doing and why i'm not doing anything other than viewing her blog and trying to understand the pains she went through....she may look like any carefree and bubbly girl you'll meet on the streets, but if u would just pause, read and feel her everyday life, you would find that underneath that mask she puts on everyday in front of everyone, are her loneliness, agony and lots of question marks...... sometimes she feels lost, sometimes she just wants to snuggle in bed and wait for a better tomorrow to come....
everytime i think of her, this song will nevertheless comes into my mind......
Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know i tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise, it moves us along, Yeah
My heard is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved (x4)
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and MAKES ME catch her everytime she falls
(yeah)
Tap on my window knock on my door
I wanna make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain (oh)
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved (Please don't try so hard to say goodbye)
And she will be loved
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
(I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain)
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
posted by Stoner @ 2:20 am
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