Anything but Ordinary

today started with a hectic morning as i had to rush down to the medical centre to collect my medical cover equipments right after breakfast(6am).... after my medical cover i went down again to the medical centre just to walk around to see if there're any major changes and also mingle around with those medics whom i haven't seen for quite awhile.... in the end i got pretty pissed by the way which my OIC, Garrick(overall-in-charge i.e head of the medics in my unit) passed sarcastic remarks to me...and those are not friendly sarcastic remarks buddies usually say to each other, instead, they were mostly pin-pointed at me....can see the way he singles me out time and again from our other fellow medics by simply not including in his plans for the new incoming medics' On-Job-Training...it's not like i'm dying to help out, so since he's not gonna include me, SO BE IT....i'm just gonna help my fellow medics with their stuffs...particularly Desmond...he's been watching my back ever since Basu left... though he's not like Basu who would really STAND UP for me when i suffer some ingrievances, he makes sure that i am not forced to do those ridiculous stuffs....

the one thing that i hate the most is when pple are unhappy about me but unwilling/afraid to confront me and sort things out...i hate to gossip around and pass remarks behind pple's back unless it's just toking crap and what my OIC has been doing lately(yes, it's ever since my long term mc due to surgery) just simply puts me off....many a time i wish to confront him and asks him what's his problem but i know that will put my my other fellow medics in an awkward position..

i can't believe there's so much to tok about just 1 afternoon.....but this afternoon, i got really pissed that i didn't tok much to Garrick....he wasn't like this back then when he hasn't taken over the job of the OIC....ever since he took over, he changed....though i had expected him to change, i didn't realise the change would be so dramatic...i feel like i dun know him anymore...the garrick that i used to know, has gone......

anyway i dun wish my comments on him to marr the extremely happy feelings i've had after chatting with yanne in MSN....

 

ever since....i think last yr, i've lost contact with yanne....she was this really nice ger whom i bet was the only one in this WHOLE WIDE WORLD to understand me better than myself and also able to comfort me and make me feel better whenever i'm down.... we've known each other since secondary school days and even after she went to Australia for further studies, we managed to remain contact.... we chatted on the phone occasionally(yes, long-distance calls and that pissed my mum quite a number of times!! hee~) but most of the time we kept contact thru MSN(last time was icq).... we would tok about everything under the sun....about her ex-bf in australia, all her ups and downs....my life as a single - attached -single guy again... and then how we managed to comfort each other after our respective breakups.... anyway ever since she finished her studies and went back to Indonesia(yes, she's an Indonesian Chinese), our contact was kept to the minimal....occasionally i managed to sneak a few calls to her place in indonesia with my broken Bahasa Indonesia(haha) and sometimes she would call me....but the better way for us to chat was thru sms.....somehow we seemed to stop contacting each other for quite awhile and tonight, for the first time this yr that i've seen her online, she told me that she is getting ENGAGED....

the first thing i said was OH MY GOD...!!

i just couldn't believe it that she's getting engaged...i know that she has known this current bf for awhile, but it never cross my mind that she'll be getting engaged so soon!!

after some explanation on the way they get engaged there, i realised it is just my self-misinterpretation that's getting myself all so excited.... from what she has described, the guy's family is actually gonna meet her family members for some kind of a formal dinner or something in which only the guy would be absent due to their custom....it is far from what i had in mind the moment i see the word "ENGAGED"....hahaa... what i thought was like those typical caucasian engagement ceremonies where u have a party, then tell everyone u guys are engaged, then proceed to slowly plan the upcoming wedding.....BUT....in this case, in singapore, we would simply call it MEET-THE-PARENTS.....i think it's just some sort of a formal recognition for both families that the 2 of them are currently together...no mention of any wedding or stuffs like that...

but then....i'm still equally shocked.... i can't believe that i'm finally in the stage whereby i'm hearing wedding bells ringing among my frenz.... i just remembered several yrs ago i was having headaches on the 21st birthday presents i had to buy for the whole yr.... and then now.....haiz....i still find it shocking.....however, as her best fren, i offered my best wishes and congratulations to her and of course some advices that she should just pause there and not hastily make any wedding plans yet(should the guy suddenly pop the qns somehow).... continue to get to know the guy more before she truly commits herself.....the last thing that i would wanna see is her getting hurt again....i remember there's this chinese saying," Men are afraid of entering the wrong trade and Women are afraid of marrying the wrong guy!!"... this is definitely so true and i believe in it.....

anyway i'm truly happy for her and i hope that this guy is really the RIGHT GUY for her.....and if he really is, then i'm expecting nothing less than an invitation card to their wedding party....(i'll not hesitate to go to indonesia to attend should it happens...)

so now after knowing that my BEST fren is progressing very well in her love life, i thought to myself," when will it be my turn?"