Pictures!!!
STUPID ME.....been blogging for so long and only till today then i know how to add pics....so i'm gonna start adding pictures to my blog....it's kinda getting boring just having text alone...sometimes with abit of photos really does makes it more interesting!!
anyway nothing really happened today...just stayed home to watch tv and play games....enjoying my precious time at home as usual....
my knee is getting better day by day....now i've been able to walk properly without limping... the bandage gets smaller too...haha...from the badly bandaged leg to now, just 2 pieces of plasters will do... this was how my knee looks like the day after surgery...
at first i thought the wounds were really big....but after i remove those thick bandages, i saw just 2 pinholes....haha....how advance the medical technology now proves to be....
i think it's better that i go to sleep now....gonna go to idp to do my application for overseas studies... alright! ciaoz~
DECISION-in-the-making
managed to force myself to take a long mrt ride to SP today... to see Ms Toh and ask for advices and opinions about my university course... didn't get to see her at first cos she was at a exam... spoke to ms lee hui bee for awhile...she still looked the same as when i took her lesson in yr 1...3 yrs ago... the moment i stepped into their shared office, that familiar feeling hit me instantly.... reminding me of how often i used to go to their office for consultation...
i sat at one of the study corner under block T4, reading my newspaper while waiting for ms toh to return to her office... lots of students walked pass me during this time and after looking at their youthful face and childish behaviour, i start to feel old myself...
around 4 plus, i decided that i should call her office to check whether she's still around for i can't wait any longer.... fortunately she answered...
i wasn't surprised when i saw her....she hasn't aged abit like ms lee hui bee... couldn't find any trace of wrinkles... amazing! haha~
we chatted for awhile, she told me briefly how university life is gonna be like, what i might be experiencing and what should i do when i face problems...and she said that i could always consult her when i need help... she managed to explain to me the difference between Food Technology and Food Science and Nutrition, the scope of the 2 different courses.... this helps alot cos i have been contemplating between this 2 course for a long time... I still need abit more time to think about it but the choices are clearer to me now than before, i know i'll be able to figure out which is the one i prefer MOST!
Faint hope......
staying up late specially to wait for the crunch match between Real Madrid and Arsenal....it's really a make or break game for arsenal.....still hoping for a win or at least a draw to keep their hopes of beating Real Madrid alive.....i know buying lottery probably has higher chance than arsenal winning, but haiz...what to do? as an arsenal supporter, definitely support them to the end!! even though knowing that they're bumping against the wall....
15 more mins and the match will start.... the feeling i'm having now is that i am quietly praying and imagining them beating real madrid, hope i still feel that they can emulate Liverpool, beat Real Madrid and go all the way to win the Champions League....i dun wanna say impossible...cos that's what i'm doing now....HOPING!!!
alright, the match is gonna start any minute.... i'm gonna go prepare my doritoes and green tea!!
ciaoz...~
aftermaths...
1 week and 3 days has passed since my knee surgery... changed my dressing once and seen the physiotherapist twice already... yesterday was the 2nd session.... each session is just around 1 and a half hours for every patient... i found it surprising that simple exercises that i wouldn't have problems doing in the past, is so difficult to do now... take for eg. The Cycling Machine.... Thinking of how hard and fast i could cycle, increasing difficulty when i get bored last time...now during physiotherapy, i couldn't even manage to turn 1 full revolution initially!!! although eventually i could revolve the paddles, i am still struggling with the easiest level!! haiz... the physiotherapist is right... the surgery(though it's not operating on the muscles) can affect the muscles alot... especially when i'm not allowed to walk with the affected leg for so long...
Watched Mulan 1 and 2 last night at one go...It was so touching! hee~ i'm now using all the time i have to catch up on the movies and dramas whiched i've missed for so long... i think i'm gonna get really fat, sitting on the sofa munching on junkfood, while my eyes fixed on the tv.... i once saw a report that when pple munch on food while they fix their eyes on tv or cinema screens, they tend to eat much more than they require... SCARY! haha.. CONTROL...CONTROL.... think i betta start on some upper body exercises asap!! i already start to feel myself getting fatter! haha....
alright..gotta charge my sis's laptop now... the batt is gonna go flat soon...
The promise....??
it's pretty much a known fact and a big big taboo for those in love...that we should never forget what u have agreed/promised to the other half... regardless of how small and insignificant the promise is...how casually the promised was made to suit that romantic enviroment...
It has been lovically(a term i just invented) proven that the power of forgotten promises, can easily fragilise(another term i just invented) a relationship... but then again....how strong can a relationship be, nowadays?
my ex-gf came to visit me yesterday... came to see how i am doing now that i've got my knee all wrapped up....something any normal fren would THINK OF doing but might not do... a good fren would OFFER TO DO but eventually might back out too... and a best fren would definitely wanna do....i DO NOT wish to use this as a way to classify my frenz...just something which i feel...that's all...
alright....so she came with a couple of nice dvds and vcds for me to kill time at home.. and a 6-pack YU REN SHENG chicken essence... pretty touched by her intentions but that's probably all i felt at that time, nothing else...no illusions nor anything... all thx to the rational part of me... maybe this is the only good thing left in a guy's brain other than flexible thinking...
so we watched The Promise together while having double swiss burger... we didn't chat much thruout the show... i was pretty disappointed that the show didn't turn out that fantastic as i thought it would be...i told her this and she agreed too.....we had the same reason to continue watching the show....Ceceilia Cheung... and it's not the first time both of us agreed on the same thing...
when the show ended, it was probably time for her to leave... gotta get something for her fren's birthday present.. it's only a short 5 mins from the moment she feels she gotta go to the moment she left my place...in a hurry u can say... as usual...and i wasn't surprised..
It's only till today, after my trip back to camp to endorse my MC, and i was searching my fridge for stuffs to munch on, that i realised i forgotten what i was going to do again... i didn't give her the Willy Wonka Chocolate Bar which i've saved for her....
I onced promised her that i would buy her chocolates... didn't managed to do it in the end till we broke up... when she told me that she wanted to visit me, i reminded myself that though we're no longer together, i should at least fulfil something which i've promised... in the end i forgot all about it.... is it really my forgetfulness? or is it a SIGN to me that THIS PROMISE should never be fulfilled? i'm not sure.... and the chocolate bar shall remain in the fridge, perhaps waiting for another chance to come along.....
shattered...
today's the 2nd day since my knee surgery at CGH... the effects of the anesthesia is almost gone now and my appetite is back to normal....
yesterday was one hell of a day i've been thru....after registering for the surgery, i was brought to my bed where i changed my clothings( wore the disposable underwear for the FIRST TIME! hee~) then after waiting for about 45 mins, i was brought to the surgery room where i was later strapped up and injected with saline solution... as a medic myself, it's actually quite assuring for me to be able to recognise the things that were used on me...the machines, pads, needles and stuffs.... so i wasn't very afraid and tensed...
when the doc is here, i only managed a ' Hi doc!' before i was put to sleep by the nurse....she was friendly and didn't shove the mask in my face like the nurse that did to me 11 yrs ago for my appendicitis surgery!(yes! it was so horrible that i could remember for so long!)
i took few deep breaths and there i was.......in WONDERLAND....
the next thing i knew, i managed to open my eyelids abit and asked the nurse," Mee Cee! is my leg still there?" she laughed and replied, " dun worry, everything's fine..."
for the next couple of hours i was in a half-conscious state...i could reply whatever qns that were given to me but i just duno who's asking...(it's a terrible feeling!!) About 6 plus, when my bread and cup of milo is here, i couldn't get them into my stomach for longer than 5 mins....after i ate them, i vomitted all out.... yucks!!... the nurse then came and told me i had to leave cos they're closing the day surgery department(they should have kept me there for 1 night seeing my condition so bad!! )
so i had to push myself up onto the wheelchair and into my dad's car..(mind u, i'm still in a semi-conscious state...) but i was too shagged to do anything, i could hear my grandma and mum saying how pale i looked...so my uncle and my dad carried me from downstairs to my bed....(THANK U UNCLE AND DAD!! LUV U BOTH!)
i remained the sleeping position with a plastic bag on 1 hand(for vomit use) for the whole night.... and never did wake up(thanks to my mum's head-massage) till this morning...around 8.30...
as for today, i was woken up by ex-gf's sms that she's going to pulau ubin for a cycling trip with her bunch of frenz...(yes we still kept contact cos we remained as close frenz) and i told her she needs to bring extra clothings just in case...in the end she didn't! anyway it's her choice...(dun blame me if u got urself dirty!)
then, i went back to CGH for some lessons on using the crutches...learnt how to use them to walk up and down the stairs...pretty fun!
i slept thru the whole afternoon before riding my dad's car to town with my mum too....i stayed in the car and they went to get some stuffs.... after that we just go straight home....simple and boring...but at least i do get some fresh air!
that's all for my 2nd day...still got 20 more days to go! haha....
Finally~!
man! my brunei allowance is finally here!! yeah~ hm...suddenly i couldn't recall what were the things which i wanted so much to buy....think i'll use some time to think about it....so excited!! it's alot of money that i'm getting for the first time! hee~
went for nic's birthday on friday...had a really rough night...playing mahjong! it was fun considering that we didn't use money as stakes! just some friendly mahjong session.... but my luck was pretty good...won a couple of times...
tmr going back to camp, but just for 1 day, cos i'm gonna go for my knee surgery on tues.... still unsure whether how long i'm gonna be handicapped...hope not too long.. so far only my close frenz know about my surgery thingy... dun wish to let too many pple know about this...afterall it's not something proud to announce.... guess i'm gonna stay at home for the next few wks...so should have time to keep blogging everyday..haha~
i LACK sleep...
man...time to get back to camp and continue those boring chores...
i've been lacking sleep since last wed...so tmr will just about be 1 wk of INSUFFICIENT sleep....i wonder if there's any permanent damage to my brain...hm...
still dun understand why i would offer to switch duty with benedict to do on the 1st Feb....i feel myself courting trouble...but just as well..i'm gonna be absent soon, so should complete my duties first before i leave for my surgery which will leave me handicapped for several wks...
just finished packing my stuffs..brought some nice new yr stuffs to munch on during duty... think i gotta go sleep liao cos have to leave hse by 6am....sad...so early and lack of sleep again.....
ciaoz..~
