Myself...?
it's so weird that many of my blogs were done during the wee hours of the night right? hee~
maybe this is the best and ONLY time which i get to do some self-reflections..
now thinking about it, i'm pretty baffled about my feelings recently.... it seems...i dun really understand myself anymore... it's either this or that i'm just lacking too much sleep, so i get kind of short-tempered and easily frustrated(i dun usually behave like this) recently...i've been trying to suppress it but it seems that i'm losing control.....bad news!
i hit back at my mum in the afternoon regarding the staying out late issue...(went to west coast to meet up with frenz for some gossiping session) and we got pretty sore for awhile....till dinner then things got lightened up...but i know i gotta avoid such scenarios again... felt like apologising to her for being rude, but dun wanna give her the impression that i decided not to stay out late again....cos i still think she's too uptight about me...
was supposed to be gambling in my uncle's hse after dinner, but somehow i got glued to his collection of latest movie dvds...till around 10pm then i changed my focus to the cards... somehow during that time yongtin called to watch the movie Fearless...been dying to catch that movie, so naturally i agreed and he said it's an 11pm movie and he's gonna pick me up now! damn...just started my stroke of good luck and i gonna go? no choice...it's the movie Fearless..
when we got there 5 mins before showtime, we were told by junqiang(the guy who bought the tix and told us the showtime) revealed that the show's actually starting at 11.45pm and he lied....upon hearing that, i got PISSED BIG TIME!!! i almost gonna explode and scold the hell out of him at that moment..but somehow, the lemon tea which i bought, managed to cool it off... as we walked around to kill some spare time off, i took a good look at myself and my clenched fist and it really surprises me for the way i have reacted.... i know perfectly in my mind that it's not the first time and i know why..(so that we won't be late for the movie) but somehow that unusual frustration and temper almost got the better of me...SCARY! maybe this is the male version of the well-knowned.... PMS?
i duno man....seriously in doubt....
the movie was really GREAT! with all the well-choreographed martial arts actions...not really the kind of ending that i would like and expect, but would consider getting a dvd to support this movie... what a pity it's gonna be Jet Li's last blockbuster...
alright, gonna get some rest for Dim Sum later at changi!
Chinese New YEar!!
yeah~ finally the day to receive Ang BAO!!!
i'm now counting down the time that i've spent not sleeping...tonight is actually the "Shou Sui" night...which means that the longer i stayed awake, the more longevity my parents get!! this is actually a custom passed down from generations to generations... hee~ though just some hearsay, but some pple like me actually do follow it! haha... in a way, it's out of the love for our parents....naturally every one wish that their parents can live for as long as possible right?
i've downloaded and printed the application form for the University of Queensland... yet to fill it in......think i gotta do some e-mailing to the lecturers there regarding the subjects before i put my pen to paper.... this is kinda big decision...
i've yet to find time to speak to my former poly lecturers....they say to visit them either tues or thurs...but so far hadn't been able to go there during these days.... managed to contact yanne today, my long time best friend....told me she just lost her sim card...sigh...as usual...muddle-headed....haha!
went to the "Guan Yin"(Goddess of Mercy) temple at bugis there...was so packed that i've got incense ashes all over me....nearly fell into a big tin becos of the pushings and shovings...
need them get so excited and violent? i wonder....
i'm now totally mesmerised by my new gadget...the iTrip...it's an FM transmitter that transmit songs from my ipod to the radio, now i can listen to my ipod songs in my dad's car and places that has access to radio!! no more speakers hassle for me! yoo~ hoo! looks like i've got the right choice in buying ipod....
i think i really gotta clear up the mess in my room....hadn't had the energy to clear up the mess....think i must really make myself hard-hearted and throw those old stuffs away.... old cds...posters...stuffs like that...
alright...i think it's almost gonna be 5am....so tired...gotta go sleep now...can't wait any longer...ciaoz...
beautiful times...just memories now...
today i had lotsa thoughts while i was helping my mum make cookies for the upcoming Chinese New Year... thought of those beautiful times that were deeply imprinted....
my childhood playmates....my first fight with big guys(not exactly beautiful, but enough to make me laugh at it)....the first time i hold a girl's hand back in primary schools... my secondary school life....poly life...subsequently army life....
all these memories just managed to screen past my head.....one particular memory managed to stop and occupy my whole afternoon till evening.... my first girlfriend...
one thing i do agree with others is that the first relationship is always the hardest to forget and will be deeply imprinted into ur head no matter how short it is....even for 1 day...if u really meant to start the very first relationship seriously, u'll never forget it....
i thought of how i first met her... we were poly classmates and we didn't chat at all till we're in the final yr... but was still limited to msn messenger...we didn't speak in class...not that i remember...nor in gatherings..
i thought of the courtship period... surprised her with all those small phone talks and large chunk of smses initially and those mushy comments, hold her hand for the first time...
i thought of the period when we were together.. we do the things we both like - watch movies, shop at poh kim, enjoy chocolates, crap to each other, enjoying each other's company...
well...like i've said..these are mere memories now.. really regret not doing more things with her before we ended...
not that i've not gotten over her yet, but it'll always be a thorn in my heart for the way we broke up... probably our relationship couldn't even get past 2 words - No Time..
the more i think of our good times together, the more i couldn't understand why we can't do our best to make it work... anyway it's all history now...she's happily living her life with 2 jobs and chill out with frenz.... and i'm gonna spend more time with my family now that i know i dun really stand a chance to enter NUS..
time seems to seep past everyone real fast...hope everyone do treasure and cherish ur loved ones...esp those with gfs....dun do those things which u know u'll regret in future... always think only of what you HAVE got and not what you COULD HAVE got....
well...that's all for now in my mind of what i wanna say..
Year 2006
Wee!! another yr has passed...it's 2006! nothing much has changed so far...hope things will turn for the better! didn't buy any new clothes for the new yr cos i've had enough nice clothes which i hadn't wear them since i bought them in taiwan, so i guess i can save the money!
Chinese New Year is just around the corner, means it's the same period of the year when i have to camp at my mum's factory to help her make those new year cookies! hee~ cos it's handmade, therefore every single member in the family has to go help out....and also get fat becos of all those pinchings...
alrightey...gotta go continue doing making the cookies!
ciaoz~
